And just like that 2022 is coming to an end. We say the same thing every year.. Slow down... I can't believe its May already. I blinked and now it's October. For the past few months I have made some very life altering changes. Nothing too drastic I promise lol. However, I was broken down several times and somehow I am still here. Shoutout to my day ones for holding me down! While I can't stress enough how important it is to have someone... just one person...just one person who you can hold you tight as your storm is passing. They don't need to feel the wind as they are holding you to know they are keeping you safe. You and that person just know..
You ever grieve so much you don't know what it is to feel alive again. Whether it's grieving the lost of a loved one or grieving the end of a relationship. It can all be life altering.. I promised I'd be transparent with myself as well as you. It hurts a lot. That emotional and mental pain can turn physical. So, as I try to move through my pain, I remind myself. It is okay. Simple as that. It is okay to feel how you feel, scream if you want to, cry if you have to. It is okay. This is the first year in a long time in which I did not put up a Christmas tree, get in the spirit of the holidays, shop or wrap presents. And it is okay. One thing I am continuously learning is to take it easy on myself. My Virgo brain does go into overdrive and just start doing what it does but even that is okay. As long as I am being true to me. Putting myself first (yes even before the kids) and looking out for me. I can't stress this enough, it is okay. I won't look back at 2022 with what ifs, could of, would of, or should of. What has transpired is now in the past. I am not saying to go forth in 2023 with an impossible wish list of things to do and achieve for the year. One thing. One simple thing per day. If all you did was get up in the morning and made yourself breakfast. That is enough. One simple thing could be all you can manage for that day. The next day might be something different. And that my lovlies is okay. So I say to you... let you be enough. The real you. Not the Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat or Tik Tok you. The you behind the lens reading this blog. You matter. I matter. So go easy on yourself in the present and future.
All it takes is a moment of realness. All it takes is a moment of kindness. All it takes is a moment of YOU.
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I'm still learning what it means to be my authentic self. I agree with you on one simple thing per day. Sometimes, I find myself stuck and then I think about all the things I can do in my life. The hard part is choosing which path to take. Happy New Year to you!!! I appreciate On the Bolivard and this post.